oh my

i want you to be happy
but i never want to see it with my own eyes

 i si i sa ero na a te...asato masad gamaya

staying up

sitting here.  tearing over you.  im going away for a long time.  maybe you dont even know.  we dont talk.

what do i do if i come back and she's with someone else?  is this it?  is all our time lost?

i guess thats that.  maybe thats as far as it goes.

i hate that i have to say with pride that im going to find my happiness.  far from you.

i tried to forget that there was a time where i really believed in just you and me.  for infinity.

my feelings are ashes.  with no wind to inspire me they just collect at my feet.  i step over them to cross through the next door, closing it behind me.

Nothing will end war unless the people themselves refuse to go to war.
-Albert Einstein

We alone do not harden our hearts

It is from a lack of consideration and foolish misconceptions that cause us to lose our humanity.

-7/31/08 17:06 scribbled on the back of a paycheck envelope on the bus ride home

I don't think-

(which causes many problems sometimes and some problems all the time)

(continuing)-i will update indigo any longer.

yes i've been reading your blog. i may perhaps continue to do so even though twelve hours before i told myself i wouldn't.

i'm so jumbled. but i don't lose sight. it's cheesy to write a blog like it's a personal message, but i don't care anymore.

今でも会いたいよ

between now and the next time we meet, whatever may happen will happen. but i will not lose sight. i don't care what may go wrong, because i am fighting to make it right in the end. i am indomitable.

i am in this world, not of it.

Lack of intelligence? Check.
Utter fearlessness? Check.
Failure to understand the danger of a situation contributing to a lack of fear? Check.

THE DREAMS OF MEN...NEVER END! AM I RIGHT?

EDIT: and no. i did not write any of my prior posts in personal response to having read any of your posts. i was out drinking with alex. (he's one of my new crew :D) the fact that it played out like that...is just how it did. it made me smile for a second.

Double EDIT!: The next time i update this...will be 7M later. when it is hopefully played out. time will tell.

Psalms 90:12

that stings

because i already know. i thought you knew that.

i'm honest because i don't know anything else.

i wonder if you'll see me through.

i did it