K: You're an idiot

You're telling me that you thought this out ahead of time, and still went through with it?
I: Pretty much.
K: That doesn't add up. You're going to do whatever it is that you do over here, and then when you go back, she'll have been doing whatever it is that she does over there. The only difference is, she can CONTINUE doing what she does, while you have to start all over.
I: And that's my fault. But I'm fine with that. I'm...I'm just not going to worry about things over which I have already relinquished control. Difficult things happen, right? She probably hates me now anyway.
K: Yeah, but she doesn't understand that you had these things in mind, I think. You did a shyt job at executing this, even though you claim to have thought about this a long time ago.
I: Couldn't get things concrete, I guess. But you have to remember that I also figured there was no right way to do it anyway.
K: So what are you gonna do when you go back and realize you...i mean you probably can't easily go back at this point. On anything.
I: Dunno. Not feeling it yet. I'm focused on what I can control, and when I go back and am dying every day, having given up on everything anyway...you'll be there for me at least, right?
K: Can't help it.